If there is a God, why is my life so messed up? I understand that he puts us through tests and junk, but this has gone on far too long. I wanna leave this country and start a new life. If my Dad leaves me with Dawn, I will go ballistic. I can’t face her alone. There is no possible way. I just want to bury myself alive. Nobody understands what I’m going through, so don’t even try to fix this. If I ever get a chance, I’m going away. I just don’t want to be here.
It’s not easy to find true friends so take advantage of all the hugs and ALWAYS take advantage of your time spent together. Never let a douche bag get in the way of what you and your best friend have. You may regret it when you need someone there for you.
I’m sick of all of this drama. Just go ahead and do what is best for all of us. We all know that it’s going to happen sooner or later.
Last night I was told that I have a tender heart and that I wanted to love people in unimaginable ways, but I couldn’t without accepting love first. And that I couldn’t accept love without accepting my self. Hearing that just messed me up, because its so freaking true. I knew it, its just different and more life-changing hearing it from someone else. I felt like I’ve know that chick for years, seconds after I met her. There was just something about her that I loved. I can’t really explain it. Anyways, from now on, I’m going to work on accepting myself for who I am and not who everyone else wants me to be. I’m going to accept the love of others without questions. I’m going to go above and beyond loving others in unforgetable ways.
These days, people don’t know the true meaning of respect. Respect isn’t interupting people, talking back, screaming and yelling for no reason, or barking orders all of the freaking time. Respect is honoring. That simple. Respect is honoring. Did you catch that?
I’m not letting my insecurities take over me. I’m free of all of that. And I’ve never felt so lively, ever in my life. And I’d like to take a moment to thank everybody in my life, friend or foes, for making me realize what I need to do to be myself. Especially, Ashton, Kristen, and Susan. Ya’ll mean the world to me. I’d do anything for you guys. Just as I know you would do for me. I love you guys. Thank you for being a person I can look up to. I can’t thank ya’ll enough for…everything…
