If there is a God, why is my life so messed up? I understand that he puts us through tests and junk, but this has gone on far too long. I wanna leave this country and start a new life. If my Dad leaves me with Dawn, I will go ballistic. I can’t face her alone. There is no possible way. I just want to bury myself alive. Nobody understands what I’m going through, so don’t even try...
I’m sick of all of this drama. Just go ahead and do what is best for all of us. We all know that it’s going to happen sooner or later.
Last night I was told that I have a tender heart and that I wanted to love people in unimaginable ways, but I couldn’t without accepting love first. And that I couldn’t accept love without accepting my self. Hearing that just messed me up, because its so freaking true. I knew it, its just different and more life-changing hearing it from someone else. I felt like I’ve know that...
These days, people don’t know the true meaning of respect. Respect isn’t interupting people, talking back, screaming and yelling for no reason, or barking orders all of the freaking time. Respect is honoring. That simple. Respect is honoring. Did you catch that?
I hate seeing people I love hurt…
I've given up my past to live the future.
I’m not letting my insecurities take over me. I’m free of all of that. And I’ve never felt so lively, ever in my life. And I’d like to take a moment to thank everybody in my life, friend or foes, for making me realize what I need to do to be myself. Especially, Ashton, Kristen, and Susan. Ya’ll mean the world to me. I’d do anything for you guys. Just as I know...
I don’t understand why God blessed me with such amazing friends and & brother. But he did, so I’ll take it. :) Oh and I’m real proud of my brother for joining in the Navy. I really hope it works out for him. I mean yeah, I’m gonna miss him, alot while he’s training, but its what is best for him that matters. I’m real excited to see how my life works out.
I’ve always asked myself, ”what does love feel like?” ”How am I supposed to show people that I love them?” Well, lately those questions have been answered. I’ve never felt more loved in my life these past couple of months. I’ve been working on letting things go and forgiving, which I found is a big part of loving. I’ve learned not to be so...
It seems as if everybody around me is so strong. I feel so weak. I don’t know how to deal with any of this. I’ve asked a couple of people what to do, but they say the most ridiculous things to do. Easier said than done, I guess. I just need my Grandparents or my Dad, maybe they’d understand. I’M JUST READY FOR ALL OF THIS TO END…